It was about 2 o’clock in the morning, and I hadn’t slept yet. I stared at the ceiling, weighing pros and cons of a major pending decision – where to get my master’s degree.

I rehearsed the countless variables and possible outcomes; I recalled the details of the diligent research I’d done; I reflected on the conversations I’d had with many people who had done what I want to do, who had been where I am going, weighing their advice carefully. Between making my own guesses about what would be the most practical and affordable choice, I asked the Lord to reveal His wisdom and will.

Not getting very far, I tried to focus my mind elsewhere, hoping to relax enough to finally fall asleep. I was almost there when a thought was emblazoned in my mind. I came to and wrote it down because I didn’t want to forget it by morning.

Too often I dream too small because I think God is limited by dollar signs. He isn’t. He has a way of providing the funds for me to become all He has created me to be. Dream on.


I’m not sure where this thought came from (and I didn’t care for the Aerosmith reference one bit), but I knew immediately it was true of me.

I’ve always dreamt small, aimed low, settled for low-hanging fruit.

I’m not saying I haven’t worked hard – I have, especially in academia. I’m saying I’ve always made my decisions based strictly upon practicality.

“I can’t” is central to my vocabulary, not because I lack ability or drive, but because I limit myself based on what I think is reasonable to assume can be accomplished with the resources I have – time, money, circumstances, experience, level of education, etc.

In this grad school case, I have let my estimations of what would be practical financially for our family limit my decision as to what program I enroll in. In other words, I’ve picked the cheapest, shortest degree possible in my field.

I began to groggily wonder at 2:26 AM if perhaps the Lord was nudging me to rethink my practical approach…

Six-something AM came too quickly, and I knew two things immediately: 1) There would not be enough coffee that day, and 2) I had to make a decision sooner than later or nights of little sleep would continue.

I got the girls off to school and sat down with a cup of coffee and my computer to check the news (which really means to scroll through my Twitter feed).

I follow a guy named Michael Hyatt, a big wig in publishing, platform building, leadership, and the like, and, wouldn’t you know it, he had posted an article with the tag line, “Are you dreaming big enough?” (The actual name of the article is “Don’t Leave God Out of Your Plans“.)


I clicked on the short article, which basically says work hard, but don’t forget it is God that chooses whether or not an endeavor will be successful. In and of ourselves, we aren’t enough.

Michael quoted Psalm 127:1, “Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman stays awake in vain.”

What struck me about this verse is the Lord has to be behind the building of the small house as well as the protection of the large city. He must be the foundation of all things, no matter their size or perceived importance. He is just as capable of building the house as well as guarding the city, and He must or neither effort will be successful.

I am going to have to rely on Him just as much to provide for the “cheap” degree as I am the “expensive” degrees. Ultimately, if He is not building my education, I am building it in vain. But if He is building my education, there will be no stopping Him. The Lord is not limited by dollar signs.

A little while later I picked up a book I am reading for advent called The Greatest Gift (Voskamp). The scripture for that day was the story of Abraham setting out to sacrifice his son, Isaac. Right in the nick of time, God provided a ram for Abraham to sacrifice instead, so Abraham named that place The Lord Provides (Genesis 22:1-14).


I paused and thought about my early morning musing – God has a way of providing everything we need to become all He has created us to be. Isaac needed that ram. Without that ram, Isaac never would’ve become the ancestor to Christ God created him to be, and Jesus’ lineage would’ve stopped right then… the story would’ve been over. Redemption would’ve become an impossibility. All would’ve been lost. Forever.

I read on.

Voskamp wrote, like only she can, “The Lord sees. And He will see to it. And He will be seen.” The simplicity of the words juxtaposed against the complexity of the thoughts behind the words stopped me. I re-read them. I considered each sentence slowly, absorbing the full weight of the truth she’d encapsulated.

The Lord sees… He sees my situation… He sees yours… He is not blind… He isn’t disinterested… He is paying attention… He is aware… The Lord sees.

And He will see to it… He will take care of your dilemma… He will provide what you need… He will not forget… He will not drop the ball… He will see to it.

And He will be seen… He will be glorified through your situation… Your heart will respond in praise to His faithfulness… Others will see His hand and marvel, too… He will be seen.


At this point I acutely (hear the sarcasm) observed the Lord was telling me to dream big and trust Him to provide.

So I committed to the school I felt would help me do that best, enrolled in my first class, and shelled out a lot of money.

And then my husband came home and told me he’d gotten a Christmas bonus for the price of the class minus $50. Sure, we could stand to put that money toward other things, but the timing of the provision of this particular check was not lost on either of us. It was as if the Lord said to me, “Go. I got this.”

I share all this to give Him glory and to encourage you in your situation where you need to be dreaming bigger and trusting Him more. God will provide everything you need to become exactly who He created you to be. 

9 thoughts on “Dream

  1. A great read, and (how could it be any other way) just what I needed at this very time. And until a second ago, I wasn’t even following your page. Then last night, the Lord put it on my heart that it was time to cut the driftwood loose, and unfollow all the pages I had been faithfully following for roughly two months, and commenting on (regularly with decent in-depth comments), but who had never bothered to check my page out even once (or at least failed to comment even once), and make room for some new pages to follow. Hence, the second page I checked out today (yours), and whether I ever see you at my site or not, you just wrote the perfect mini-sermon for me, that I never would have heard, if the Lord hadn’t got me to remove 85 other pages that were taking up all my time, and really contributing very little to anything but their own egos. So I thank you very much, and I think you made the right choice with your own situation, and please keep on with the great posts, and I’ll read you later. Have a great day. God bless.

  2. The title of your article caught my attention “Dream”! I am love dreaming,learning and planning lol
    I am finishing my undergraduate degree and already thinking about doing a master degree. I have stayed up doing the exact same thing. I asked God to guide me throughout the decision of which area to chose, or if the less expensive one would fit me better?! And I often try hard enough to guess what God is must likely to do for me and make it a plan. I was so glad I got to read your article. It was a God reminder that I shouldn’t limit myself or God on what He is able to do in my life. Thank you!

  3. I love this so much. It’s so simple to believe that God can do all things and I do believe this wholeheartedly when it comes to someone else’s life. I get excited to see people “GO BIG” and have no doubt that God will show up. When it comes to my own life, I’m always to practical. I’m sure you must be thinking “How can that be? You’re moving your family to Ethiopia!” But that’s Joe’s dream. I’m along for the ride. God sees, He will see to it and He will be seen in the plans he has laid for Joe. NO DOUBT. However, I’ll JUST homeschool and provide support and encouragement because that’s practical and somewhat doable in my own strength. BLAH! That’s so boring and so easy. God’s not safe but He is good. I don’t want to miss out on being and doing ALL He has for me, my marriage or my family but playing it safe. How do I stop playing it safe?
    So excited for your new adventure and will pray for you to consistently trust Him as you “GO BIG” even if you don’t see immediate tangible evidence of His provision.

    • Karyn, I thought of you guys after I wrote this. I am sure it is easy for missionaries, especially, to worry about finances. You may THINK you are “just” going to raise your kids, but I have a hunch God has far bigger plans for you in Ethiopia. I’ll pray that you keep your spiritual eyes and ears open and, when you do sense Him at work, you won’t feel fearful or doubtful but secure in His love and excited for the adventure ahead. Can’t wait to hear the next chapter of your story!

  4. Good read. Reminder that he hears, sees, “has got this” and will be glorified in it. I know He is working on me right now, which is why I think I am in this waiting game I don’t want to be in (just give us the call for a baby already!!). But I am also confident that this is His timing and by doing the things He is leading me to do during this time of waiting, instead of wasting it pouting at Him, it will make me all that much better of a mom to our two kids now and the one we are waiting on the call for (and any others that may come along!). I mean can you imagine me being a mom that NEVER yells at her kids? HAHAHAHA!!! Good one, God! Anyone and everyone who knows me will be able to say TO HIM be the GLORY on that one! 🙂 (I really do TRY not to, really really – hence the work I am doing during this waiting season.) And of course even if I do yell on occasion, I am very HOPEful that I will be an improved version of the myself anyway. Love You and your wisdom, Girl!! 🙂

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